Amanda is a Hamilton, ON based watercolour painter, sewing instructor, knitter, mother, and generally crafty person!

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How Things Are Going #6

How Things Are Going #6

As most (all?) of you know, I am struggling. First, I just felt lots of self pity. Then, I assumed it was all kinds of terrible things. (For three measly sentences, let me tell you, that process took MONTHS.) 

Then, I went to a psychologist. She asked me if there is anyone in my family with seasonal depression. I said "Well, me, maybe. I sometimes have to sit in a UV lamp in the winter."

Silence. 

One raised psychologist eyebrow (in case you haven't experienced it, that is the most intimidating kind of raised eyebrow there is).

Me: "Oh."

Then, to fill the rest of the time, we chatted about some other things like giving birth and managing time and taking time for yourself. She told me I have a great sense of humour and good common sense and that makes for great mothers. So now I want to tell so many people that they have great common sense, because that actually felt like the best compliment EVER. Especially since I was feeling pretty dumb for not having S.A.D. even occur to me, even though I KNOW that I have had it before. 

So now every morning and evening, I take my mug and my knitting and sit in the sunlight for 30 minutes, and take Vitamin D. It's been less than a week but already I am popping out of bed in the morning (something that felt completely impossible two weeks ago), smiling more and napping less. 

I feel relieved. Although Seasonal Affective Disorder is not easy, it's at least something I am familiar with, and I know I am so lucky to have such a calming and stress free solution with no drug interventions. I am still not 100% but I have hope that I will improve quickly. 

And now, it's almost Christmas! Since I might not post again before that, I would like to tell all of you now that I appreciate you so much! For everyone I know who reads this blog, for those of you I had never heard of who introduced yourselves to me on the street, who told me congratulations for having a baby or gave me quick hugs, who let Jay and Molly and I share their tables at the Burnt Tongue, to everyone this year who has emailed me advice, support and encouragement on everything from breastfeeding to knitting to hair loss to depression -- you have my gratitude, for letting me cry and helping me smile. When I think about you guys, my eyes sting with tears, in the best way. 

Merry Christmas!

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