Tomorrow is the beginning of Me Made May! I wanted to blog about my third year participating and what I am hoping to accomplish.
In many ways, my reasons for participating have changed and grown. My first year was about really embracing the idea of having a handmade wardrobe, and that it didn't need to be frumpy or ill fitting or cheap looking. My second year was after just having had Molly, and I was desperately excited to start fitting into my handmade clothing again.
This year I am already wearing handmade garments almost every single day. I learned to knit and that has blown my wardrobe options wide open. I bought a new sewing machine today (Eeeee!!!). I have some projects in the works that I am super excited about and I am at Needlework more often than ever these days, and love being surrounded by all the smart and crafty people that frequent the shop!
But for all that? I feel totally disconnected from my wardrobe. This is the year that I am seeing some wear and tear on my favourite items. Some things just simply don't fit like I would like them to. And it's not about sewing skill, it's about sewing some beautiful things and then watching my body change through pregnancy and recognizing that my body shape is forever altered. I am honestly not totally sure how to optimally dress myself for my current body shape and day-to-day activities and it makes me feel uncomfortable and tired in my clothing.
I have also struggled with psoriasis for years but, since having a baby, it has exploded across my legs. It's itchy and painful and looks even worse than it feels. I can't help but be self conscious about it, and have relegated my beloved handmade shirt dresses to be worn only at home or with tights.
Then I wear jeans every day and struggle with feeling put together and happy in my clothing.
This obviously all has to change. I would love for this Me Made May to bring me back into a happy place with my self image and my clothing. I think that is going to mean going through my wardrobe and being honest about which items aren't going to fit again and hopefully passing them on to people who will take care of them and love them like I do. It's going to mean sewing some new items, that are forgiving of my new shape and disguising of my psoriasis. It's going to mean embracing taking selfies even though these days I find that process really difficult. And all those things are going to be good for me, in ways that are quite different from previous years.
So I pledge to wear at least one handmade item per day. I will take selfies as often as I can, life and slightly demanding tiny person permitting. I would like to sew some more items that are flattering and sort through my closet to leave it with only the handmade items that suit me and make me feel good!
Are you participating in Me Made May? I would love to know who else is giving it a go!